YOUTH LAGOON aka Trevor Powers talks anxiety,
adulation and the creation of a critically acclaimed, partially therapeutic album
recorded in a garage. ANDY HAZEL leans in a little closer.
“I still find it strange answering questions about
my mind,” Trevor Powers says carefully. “But you do start to get used to it
after a while. It’s still strange to me mainly because I don’t know how to
explain things. I’ve never been good with words, I’m better at singing than
talking.” It’s worth pointing out that Powers is very good with lyrics, as
emails from empathetic fans around the world attest. His gentle warmth and
quiet enthusiasm throughout the interview seem slightly at odds with the
fragile lost soul haunting the songs of his album The Year of Hibernation.
In the case of writing such personal music and
seeking an audience for it, most performers have a line dividing what they feel
comfortable expressing and what is off limits. For Powers, a singer who
identifies to an unusually strong degree with the acutely honest songwriting of
Daniel Johnston, deciding where to draw that line is tricky. “I don’t know if I
have decided yet!” he says laughing
loudly. “I write songs that I feel and ideas that I want to express, the way
that I’m interpreting things around me and life I guess, so as far as that goes
I don’t really analyse what I can or cannot say or should and shouldn’t say.
I’m just writing and I haven’t been analysing that much, not until someone asks
me about it anyway,” he says lapsing into another easy laugh.
Since the release of The Year of Hibernation, Powers’ life has been taken over by his
role as Youth Lagoon. Previously a student at Boise State University who
recorded and wrote music in his spare time, in 2010 Powers had to choose between
continuing to pay for counselling session that had been helping him to manage
his chronic anxiety, or to record an album. So, it was that the album became a
vehicle to help him organise his thoughts.
“When I write, part of what is going on stems from
personal experiences, but also from analysing what’s going on around me. I’d
say that process is partially therapeutic.” Though the album revels in intimate
beauty using a garage as a studio, small synths and old pianos, and boasts
poetic snapshots of emotional times and places, Powers is still unsure whether
the album was ‘successful’ in helping him deal with the issues that prompted
its creation. “I think so, but I still have a weird mind,” he says with another
laugh. “It is always therapeutic dealing with things, growing and learning. I
don’t think you put something on paper and it’s dealt with just like that,
you’re constantly learning and constantly growing and you just getting better
or wiser about managing. Being busy helps, it helps to keep my mind on other
things, when you’re put in different circumstances, you have different
anxieties,” he laughs. “It’s always one of those things you’re dealing with,
but a lot of people don’t talk about it so much, I actually think it’s really
common, but isn’t spoken about very often.”
To a certain extent, Powers has found that his music
has had similar beneficial effects on other people dealing with severe anxiety,
though he’s hesitant to take on the role of a teacher or example of success.
“People do write to me and say: ‘I’ve heard you write stuff about anxiety and
dealing with your mind,’ but really everyone is so different and people’s minds
are structured so differently, it really comes down to that person figuring out
their own way. I don’t know much help I can be to them directly, but I’m really
glad that my music meant something to them.”
Playing his music in a live setting is something
that has only recently been considered by Powers. “For the most part I went
into recording the album with the mindset of making exactly what I wanted it to
be, without thinking about how I’d play it live. Once it was done I was like
‘now what? How do I make it happen?’” he pauses. “It was a big process for
about four months as far as getting everything together and figuring things
out. Like how to use my beat machine and make all the beats happen away from me
on stage. I have one person playing with me live, Logan [Hyde] who does the
guitar, so with just two people on stage we have to figure out ways to do
things. I‘m happy with how it’s been interpreted live, how the songs are
expressed. It has a different feel than the album because that was made in such
a specific environment. The vocals were recorded dry, without any effects, then
played through these two monitors in my friend’s parents’ four-car garage and
we captured the natural reverb, then they were recorded in order to get that
feeling. On stage, there are different things I’ve done with my voice as far as
pedals and effects go.”
Fortunately, Powers finds that revisiting the songs
so often doesn’t lessen their emotional impact, an impact that many live
reviews find compelling. “That’s the only way I know how to play,” he says.
“Music to me takes me back to certain places and events. As for when a show
starts, it’s almost impossible for me not to think about when it was written
and what was going on, it’s just as
emotional if not more so. Playing them over and over, reliving that over and
over, I don’t mind that. I don’t know why,” he pauses, “maybe it’s just because
I really enjoy it but then…man I don’t know if there is even an answer to that
question!” he laughs again.
Despite writing the album alone, and having spent
very little time by himself since the glowing reviews arrived and incessant
touring began, Powers has found inspiration to write a new batch of songs in
his constantly shifting environment, “I’m just always writing and working on
ideas. A lot of the time I’m interpreting things around me. I can’t say if it’s
more personal than what I’ve done, but the songs definitely act as time
capsules. All my music is like that, especially now that I’m going on tour and
working on songs in hotel rooms, they come across in a totally different way
than if I’m writing at home, and these are times I want to remember.”
One environment that is a constant for him is his
hometown of Boise, a place he mentions at every opportunity and the importance
of which is underlined by a tattoo of Idaho on his arm, next to the words ‘Be
still’. “I think Idaho is one of the most underrated places in the world,” he
says keenly. “The other night I went for a drive into the mountains and…they’re
always amazing to me. I’ve always loved camping and exploring the state but
recently a friend and me have gotten more into hiking. Some of the Sawtooth Mountains
and parts of Idaho National Park are so beautiful. It’s very much a part of who
I am.” Here’s hoping he doesn’t lose this connection anytime soon.